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Just got back from a very fun time camping with my best friend, his fiance, sakaane, and some other friends. Very glad we had the opportunity to go this weekend, instead of the previous holiday weekend (for us Canadians). The weather was gorgeous, there were very few other people around, and we pretty much all had the opportunity to unwind and have a good time. It was also a much needed opportunity to commune with nature a bit and cast off some of the gloom I've been feeling lately. Possibly the funniest part of the whole weekend was a very brief rain shower that happened Sunday night. We had lashed together a frame out of some dead-fall trees to string up our tarps for shade and shelter. Just as we were trying to relocate this frame, part of it broke apart. Then someone commented "It's going to rain" and just like a tap, it started pouring for several minutes... Just long enough for us to scramble and get everything covered. Then it was like mother nature turned the tap back off, and it stopped again. We all had a good laugh later. Anyhow, I'm mildly sunburned, hungry, and very tired. Time for a shower some rest. Tags: camping Current Mood: cheerful
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What does it mean to be human? I should probably preface this with an admonition of my near total lack of exposure to any contemporary or classical writings on the matter, so if I'm touching on ground that's already been covered by someone more educated than I, you'll know why. I've been watching a great deal of sci-fi and anime (Ergo Proxy, Ghost in the Shell, Battlestar Galactica, Doctor Who, Stargate: Atlantis, Torchwood, and Farscape) recently--overdosing, in fact, one could argue--culminated by this trailer for a novel. In the video the character states: They told me I'm not human. I'm more human than they are. I'm more human than...human. This got me to thinking about the question at the beginning of my post. What does it mean to be "human"? This led to the further realization that, without context or contrast for comparison, can we even begin to define such a topic. ( cut for length )Tags: philosophy Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Half Life 2 Soundtrack
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Let's hope May is better... April was not good to me. So... remember that frustrated post where I was talking about my new job spontaneously imploding three days before I was supposed to start? Well, the long and short of it is: our backup plan for launching a business isn't going to pan out. At least not in time to keep me employed. My friend and I sat down today and discussed things. It'd be a miracle if the business launched before fall... and his money reserves from the previous business will be depleted long before then. So that means I need to find another job. More frustratingly, it means I also cheated myself out of the two and a half weeks of vacation I had saved up at my old job... for absolutely no gain (at this point). If I'd had any indication things were going to turn out this way, I would have taken my vacation before leaving my old job. *sigh* Taking stock of the past month(ish): THE BAD: • Rear wheel sheared off my car • Car repair bill • New job vanished • Computer tried to die • Got sick • Had to find a new apartment • Computer tried to die again • U-Haul messed up my truck booking • Moving for the 17th time in 10 years • Stress of trying to start a new business • Had to pay new damage deposit before getting old one back • General anxiety about my uncertain future • Attending Comic Con & my mask are up in the air (pending job) • Finding out the new business won't launch in time and I need to find another job | THE GOOD: • Car fixed (but expensive) • Computer repaired under warranty • Got away to the mountains for a weekend with sakaane • Found a new, bigger place to live (for less rent!) • Finished moving today • Got damage deposit back |
Overall...Not impressed. I have a few things going in my favor, but if bigger things don't fall into place fast, that isn't going to last. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't more than a little...stressed? pissed off? I guess "frustrated" sums it up best. I just hope this means the worst is over and things will start going my way in the coming month. ...And next April, you can find me hiding under a rock! *wry laugh* Tags: arrrgh, change, stupidity Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Nightwish - Amaranth
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*Updated*Extended warranties on laptops are good thing. I learned this after my Toshiba laptop croaked a month out of its manufacturer's warranty. It would have cost about $800 to get it fixed. The extended warranty would have cost me about $350 for 3 years coverage (on a $2,800 laptop). Lesson learned, I bought the uber-warranty (next business day on-site repair + one-time accident coverage) when I picked up my current laptop. It cost me about $450 (on a $4,000 laptop), but I've gotten my money's worth out of it: Within the first year, I accidentally knocked my computer over while plugged in, snapping the connector off my power brick, and damaging the motherboard. It was fixed two days later, no extra charge. Then my replacement power adapter crapped out last year. Replaced, no extra charge. The other day, my computer shut down suddenly. When I turned it back on, I received this message:  It turns out one of my cooling fans quit working. Half an hour on the phone yesterday, and the Dell repair guy will be here today to fix it. has been here and my computer is now running smoothly again! YESSS!!! No extra charge. Say what you want about Dell (and just for the record, yes, I have ended up talking to call center reps in India a couple times now), but their warranty coverage is awesome--totally worth the extra investment. Tags: computers, dell Current Mood: working
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I'm tempted to dump another emo-venting post about this lovely (sarcasm) string of luck I've had recently, involving my car, finances, computer, and an even bigger..."upset"... that I'll get into later. However, I want to acknowledge the personal significance of tomorrow. March 31st will my the last day with my current employer, which spanned from September 2nd, 2003 to April 31st, 2009. 2036 days (and change) Or 5 years, 6 months, 28 days, 8 hours Alternative time units: * 175,939,200 seconds * 2,932,320 minutes * 48,872 hours * 290 weeks (rounded down) That's also 19% of my life to date, or 6.25% of my theoretical maximum lifespan... Any way you want to count it, it's a long time. I have a lot of mixed feelings about the decision to leave. I hope I've made the right decision and come away from this with a lot of lessons learned that I can apply to the future. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared. I'm downright terrified. Change--any change--can be daunting... and given the events of the past four days, most of the confidence I had in my future has been demolished. I can only hope this is the proverbial darkness before the dawn. I know I'll get through whatever is ahead--but whether that experience will leave me stronger for persevering, or weaker for merely surviving it, time will tell. A sliver of the waxing moon is visible outside my window, making its way to the western horizon. That's almost exactly the same moon I was born under 29 years ago. Hopefully this is a good sign. Anyhow, I'm getting far too dramatic. Time for sleep and whatever tomorrow will bring. Tags: career, changes, life, work Current Mood: pensive Current Music: Sarah McLachlan - Angel & Creed - Weathered
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So I was driving to work this morning. Third last day at the satellite TV company. I rounded the second last corner before the work parking lot... ...Then all of a sudden I'm fish-tailing. This shouldn't be possible, I thought, it's a front-wheel drive vehicle...Next I feel my back end lurch and the nose of my car pitches up. In the split seconds that follow instinct kicks in and I start braking while steering my car to the curb. Meanwhile my peripheral vision registers a large, dark, round object rolling alongside my car as I skid to a halt, the sickening sound of metal grinding on asphalt the whole way. Somewhere along the way my brain reaches the conclusion of what's happened. My rear right wheel has sheared off from the vehicle. My heart racing, and very glad I was on an almost vacant piece of road, I get out to inspect the damage:
 (the second picture is after it was towed to my mechanic)Much cursing, swearing, and freaking out ensued before calling work to let them know I was going to be a bit late. All things considered, I was very lucky. No one was injured. I recovered the missing wheel. And compared to what could have happened, my car sustained very minor damage. Still, it's a $350.00 repair bill at a very inconvenient time. Tags: arrrgh, car, stupidity, work Current Mood: shaken Current Music: Apocalyptica - I Don't Care
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